I'm supeeeeeeeer glad that i'm able to post now. Had loads and tons of difficulties posting last night. and guess what, i slept in the morning at 6. i spent the whole night doing chemistry and reading of dictionary. i practically got engrossed with the dic. that i forgot the time. finally when i'm tired, it's already 6am. well, i guess things are running too much in my head. :x stayed at home the whole day. did some chemistry, housework. i cooked dinner today. but then, i'm sorry, mummy. it just slipped my mind. but there is also no need for you to say that i'm useless right? sighs. guess i won't be sleepin again tonight. i'm going to chiong finish my physics and chemistry tys. i wanna go to school tomorrow. should i?
YESTERDAY;
had emaths tuition at 6. rushed down from wd'lands to bishan and ran to tcher's place. for some particular reason which only mic knows. :x tuition w/o dear momo was stilly. plus, lingying flew off to japan to do maths.HAHA. 2 down. left mic,kai&me. So, after tuition, went to library to drop mic's books and went to ljs. accompanied mic for dinner and yea, we talked. tears fell again upon the same topic. chatted and munched for around an hour and we went home. as i ambled down the long walk home, 我很想爱他-twins' song came to my mind.
隐瞒比较容易吧 免得感情变得复杂 退出可以解围吗? 谁能给我一个好的回答? 我们每个人都是受害者.. certain phrase to this song had made alot of sense.
i wanna see you. Should i go to sch tmr? But there's the only place where i can take a look at you. sighs. why must things go to this extend? and what exactly do you mean by giving you a chance to tell someone? it's ambiguous, isn't it? I know that you're being altruistic, but my affection for you may have caused immeasurable damage to both of us. to me, yes. but to you, i don't know. You seem impervious to what happened. i'm trying to ameliorate, to bring back our friendship. But it just seems that you're running away from it. You always seem to have an aversion to relationships. why is this so? what is it that you can't tell me about? even though you have officially rejected me, but our friendship is still there,right? How i wish you can talk to me like how you used to, care for me like how you used to. I believe that fate and affinity exist. maybe falling in love with you was an act of sheer folly, but i hope it's just a fallacy. my idiocy may have frightened you, but you think i want it? The fatuous actions that i once did was afflicting. and that would be the last thing that i want to happen to me. However, sometimes i just don't seem to be in the right state of mind. It become uncontrollable. I yearn to be who i used to be, an amiable teenager. But being tranquil is good too, right? at least there'll be nobody to buzz around you.. As for now, all i hope is that you'll talk to me. at least a call? i swear that i'll be glad enough just to peek at you, or even hear your voice. for that's the only way i can let out my fixation for you. Other than that, i'll be behind that cheerful facade.. In the mystique of love, i ,inadvertently fell in love with mr.enigma..
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