a promise;

wait. just wait. soon it'll be 28feb. and i'll be free from the working life. i can't wait to catch up with classmates, once-very-good friends, my girls, and chase back all those that i've missed out. i don't like the feeling of being left out. who likes it? i'm gonna make the effort to fill myself up.

i don't like seeing pictures w/o me.
i don't like knowing of an outing after it's over.
i don't like postponed outings.
i don't like people to find excuse for me.


i WANT to join in the fun.
i WANT to maintain our friendship.
i WANT to be sociable.
i WANT people to not forget me when there's outing.
i WANT people to know that WORK is not an excuse.


sometimes it's really hard to say "no" to fun. but work, what to do. but the least i will do is to try to arrange my time so that i can still join in at the very last moment. doesn't matter when there's no food left for me, or when everyone's starting to leave at the time i'm reaching. What's important to me is that, at least i turned up. i tried to turn up. i'm working so much and hey, i need some entertainment! i don't want my friends to say things like : " oh, she's working. forget it. no need ask her come. " i tell you, that's the last thing that i want to hear. it's not the outing that matters to me, it's the thought of asking. this is not something to pinpoint somebody or what. it's just an example. and i suppose, the feeling of knowing that there's this outing and yet nobody informed you is not nice. days later somebody asked why you weren't there. what can you say? you knew nuts about it. like hello, there's this thing called HANDPHONE/MOBILE PHONE. won't somebody just call that poor fella and inform her?! yes, it might be a small matter. but at the end, someone's self-esteem and ranking in her friends' eyes will slip away. nobody wants to forget someone right? ( except for those who're trying to forget ex-boyf/girlf ).

argh, random topic. and i'm pissed again. till 28feb.?


> AHH WHATEVER!