hey heys. it had been a long time since i blogged. this new skin was done by chan hong. i was retarded at this. so got help from him. no hope. no point waiting and waiting. but given my character, i'll continue to wait. until im occupied. im so confused. PATIENCE is what i really need now. UNDERSTANDING is what i really wan u to do. sometimes i really feel it the end of mi. crying in silence where nobody noes. starring at my fone. hopin tat it would ring. hopin it was the one whom i really wanted to see on the screen. but i noe, this is jus a dream. it's not gonna happen and never goin to happen once more. i'll only have to live in my own lala land and wish for what i really wanted. in my own lala land, i see him everyday, every moment, every second of my remaining life. i would so wanted to forever stay in lala land than to face reality. i admit i am not able to face reality. im SCARED to face it. i DUN'T WANT to face it. im living in the darkness, all alone. sighs. wishin upon the stars*