to meangirls:

yea, my fault again. even outsiders could sense that something was wrong. to send that msg was the only way outof this agony. and yet, you all couldnt understand. reflect and look at yourselves. am i too emotional? maybe yea. but mostly it's because of you. have you all ever wondered why have i become like this? what's the meaning of girlfriends when u all ignored me, diao-ed me,walk past me as if i'm a stranger to you. have you even noticed that i've tried very hard to talk to you, always taking initiative to say a simple HELLO and no one hello me back or whatever? is that my fault too? i've always felt bad for not turning up at 2yrs celebration but if that's why you guys are ignoring me or not even takin a look at me, i'm sorry. i cant believe my good friends, best girls, DEAREST darlings somemore, to be so petty. did y'all ever know that i've been crying almost everyday and every night just because nobody answered me when i've been repeating my question to you for more than 3 times? i texted you but no reply. i jus wanted to care for wenlynn who's my friend too right? nobody is willing to tell me what happened exactly and when u finally replied, you said "nothing". obviously there's something but why couldnt you just tell me? is that so difficult? i have to ask alicia what happened and she's an outsider. you tell her but not me. ask yourselves, u think i feel good breaking up with you all just like that? just a msg over and that's it.u think i'm feeling super great huh? why don't you say i'm jumping and rejoicing because our 2 yr friendship is over. looking at how much fun you all were having in school without me really hurts me. but on the other hand, i'm happy to see you all happy. i don't deny that i'm always not around. but you have to think. i'm busy with prom night and tuitions. but now, looking at all of you wearing the same pair of shoes, walkin past me as if i was invisible, i cried out immediately, instantly. graduation ceremony haven't even started and i've cried. people were thinking that i'm that emotional. but well,i've got no more friends except for one or two. thinking of sitting at the same table as all of you will hurt me. as i said in the message, i bet you all cant wait for me to leave meangirls. that the feeling you guys gave me. i've been deceiving myself over and over not to think too much bt still, i have my own limits. i may seem to be the bad guy who betrayed and left you all. but for all i know, i've done nothing wrong. i've offered my help during that wenlynn's incident. but what have i gotten in return? a walkaway on me. that's one example. so, if you all think that i'm being too much and overboard by saying these stuffs, maybe you all should think what have made me to become like this today. i really dread that things have become like this. if time could be rewinded, i'd wished i've done better in sec2 so that i can be in the same class as you all. i believe we wouldnt be ending up like this...