hopeless;

had a terrible headache and nauseousness. dad sprained his back and bro hurt his ankle.. what's wrong with my family? did bff even know that i'm not feeling well? idts. most probably he'd be thinking about you-shld-know-who. that person missing from school, you'll notice. when i didnt turn up, it's my own business. yea, i'm jealous. so what? you don't even care. haha.

hopeless alrdy. almost a year and still cant let go? wth. then what about me? sighs. i feel heartbroken.. i mean like, devoted is good. it's very good. but in this kind of situation like mine, it's not good AT ALL. now obviously is not the right time to talk about these kind of things, but it's unavoidable. it's just RIGHT IN FRONT of me. i can't possibly let go pass just like that eh? and oh, i cannot take that night as if nothing had happened.. it's been hard for me to hide everything, all in me. tryng not to let my emotions take over me. you understand? even though i appear to be strong, apparently i'm not. you knew exactly what would upset me and yet you let it happen intentionally. just what are you trying to do? to break my heart so that it's once and for all? i know that i'm just a nobody,er maybe somebody, to you. but do you actually have to do this? GRRR. i hate you!


some things are meant to be like this, meant to be this way. it's predestined. this is what i might call fate, or rather destiny.
good luck to me!