sighs. was awake the whole morning. tears rolled down non-stop for exactly 1o minutes. eyes were lil red when i woke. cried from morning 1.25 a.m to 1.35 a.m. record broken. was totally angry and broken. undergoing emotionally depression. totally not in a very good condition to talk. very very emotionally attacked. my biggest fear is to hate. i dun wish to hate anybody. im a sociable person. everyone's my friend. alright. today went to buy a baby pink shirt at 37 degrees which cost me $22.9o. was totaly broke. yesterday bought a surfer girl's shorts which cost me $14.50 and now this. looks like im spending money everyday. tomorrow goin to watch movie. wed to fri goin chalet. sat go for BBQ session. looks like im a busy person. very busy and big spender indeed. as i've already said, i wont be home from wed to fri. so i cant post.people gonna MISSED me. hahas. but if u really need my companion, jus call me at 9272_ _ _ _. people who noe me should noe my num. well, band prac today from 8.45 a.m to 2. was caught in the traffic for half an hour. left home at 7.30, waited for cab cos raining, waited for half an hour den caught in traffic half an hour. in the end reached sch at 9. so terrified of punishment. wad a series of unfortunate coincidences. sighs. today colourguard did was slack slack slack. all of us were so slacky today. not in the mood to do strokes. aching all over. everything's gonna end soon.. no pain.. no more. not anymore. close my eyes and everything will soon be gone.. [ how i wish it would be true for me. ] totally heart-broken. really. no joke.

wishin upon the stars*